This is a good question I am trying to answer today. The cake on Friday night was all because I wanted it, not because my friends did. I even rationalize my holidays thinking no one wants to eat how I eat so I have to cook for them not me. I try to do both and stick to it, but who is going to eat clean when surrounded by all that stuff I can’t have? And I brought it into the house!
I choose restaurants and meals sometimes solely for the other person’s needs knowing that it will allow me the excuse to cheat a little. I’ve been known to tell people “choose any restaurant, I’ll be fine” simply because I want an excuse to cheat. That’s a lot to admit here, but it is true.
Today is day two eating clean. I feel like ASS. I’m tired, crabby, lethargic, my head is a constant dull ache and my system is doing it’s wig out thing it does when I eat clean.
Gluten is like a drug. It makes me crave sugar, for one, but it also deadens me to how I really feel. When I eat gluten it’s like I have this cushion around me and I am more able to bounce back from things that rub me the wrong way. When I am off gluten, initially, all I want to do is get that cushion back. It becomes all I can think about. This time I am dropping processed grains, too, so there isn’t even the comfort of a gluten-free waffle or tortilla to comfort me. This is going to be challenging. I know that once I get past the hard stage it will get easier. I just have to get there.
- Breakfast: Vega chocolate protein powder with unsweetened almond milk and peppermint extract (Thin Mint Shake)
- Lunch: Mixed greens with herbs, tomato, onion, and chili beans
- Dinner: Quinoa and Chick Pea casserole with tomatoes and green pepper, salad greens on the side
- Snack: Vega Smoothie
A couple more days of feeling like death and I will feel better. At least I know that now. The probiotics in the smoothie will help, too, and I am going to down a coconut water before dinner. That will also help.